記録 2015.12.13.ぐだ〜
◆12月8日、一週間前~に書いていたものが残ってた。
(- -)一応置いておく。
月夜さんは東京にいらっしゃってるし
（紅葉の中でカレーうどん、いいなあ。かっぱ達と楽しく！の妄想捗り）
まみこさんはブログをさらえてるし
みんなどんどん行っちゃうのに自分だけ
遅い！この感じ。ｗ
*土日は本当に寝てるか食ってるかでなーんにもできず。
すんげえキラッキラに晴れて美しい休日だった感じだけど、
もったいないとも思わず。
食事がしたいんじゃない、過食がしたいんだっ。コドモ全開。
*月曜日。仕事行ったはずが10分で帰って来た。ｗ
もう通勤電車からして頭が痛いわおなかもおかしいわ。
ま あんだけ週末身体を酷使しておいてパリッと元気で頭もクリアって方が怖いわな。ｗ
久しぶりに太陽の光と風だけで涙が出るほどつらい。
家に帰って布団にもぐりこんで、なぜか大汗かいて12時間くらい寝たらちょっとすっきり。
ちょっとだけ。コンタクトのストックがないことに気がつき
（よく気がついたと思う）うーだりーっ。と思いながらもズルズルとコンタクト屋さんと眼科へ。
クリスマスデコでキラキラなんだけど、もう、光、きれいなもの、それだけでブルブルするくらい「痛い」。
やばいやばい。久しぶりにやばい。
でも、何とか。コンタクトゲット。
*火曜日。定時にあがって定期を買いに行く。
昨日涙目でうつむいて通り過ぎた電飾を、今日は、携帯カメラでパシャパシャ☆
あー、今日は余裕があるのかな？ちょっと嬉しかった。
*アイデアの秘訣は、執念である。湯川秀樹氏の名言だそうだよ。
ちょっと元気になった気がする。
私は、執着というか、念が強すぎるらしいんだ。
何でもかんでもに、心がべたっとよくくっついて、なかなか離れない。
記憶力の良さとは関係があると思う。
スムースにいかないこと、苦しいこと、「偏り」が激しいことが多い。
人とは違った、それもきついゆがみを持ったレンズで世界を見ている。
自覚してるから、普通の人のレンズも相当「練習」して理解する努力をしてきた。
原因も分析して、自分のものにしてきた。
そっか、執着が強いとアイデアが出るんだ。
までも、「不必要」なものにべたっとくっついて離れないのは迷惑だし苦しいからな。
ぱっと離れられる努力と工夫は必要だよね。
****In my PC, some memos that I wrote more than a week ago remains.
Just for a record, leaving it below.
*5th and 6th Dec., I had done nothing. Only (over)eating and sleeping.
They were so beautiful days, and weekend, as I remember correctly, but I couldn't regret at all.
I wanna only binge, don't wanna take a meal.
*Monday. I was in office only 10 min.
When I was on the train, I had a headache and bellyache.
But is it scary if I'm in excellent condition while that I was in the weekend.
For a change, only sunlight was hurt all over, I was a little surprised to feel like that.
Getting back home and went to bed right away.
The evening, got up to find somehow sweated a lot and felt better just a little.
Found the stock of contact lenses to run out in a few day,
started to around the station the contact-lens-shop and ophthalmology - grovelingly.
(It's already completely dark. The day has increasingly got short.)
Christmas season is coming, the town here and there decorated and dazzling happily, cheerfully, merrily, but I couldn't take so at all. For a change, that're only felt hurt, irritated, couldn't stand to walk around.
I managed to get new ones.
*Tuesday. Left office on time and bought a commuter pass for the bus.
I could see around and take some pictures of dazzling spectacles I managed to pass by with my head down.
Am I a way better than yesterday? I felt a little happy.
*Tip to get inspiration is to be persistent.
Dr.Hideki Yukawa's quote, cheers me up I found the other day somewhere.
Some say I'm abnormally persistent and likely to too concentrated, and leaving my concious on people, things.
That might come to my good memory and concentration, but sometimes suffer people, itself get troubles more than enough. I should keep setting it right for good.
I'm seeing world through distorted glasses from others', glasses would have distortion more or less, but the way of mine is extraordinary so I have been learned the others' and tried to understand much.
I have to keep learning the way leave from one that I once been stuck.
I got, persistence makes people creative and inspirational.
That really cheers me up.
**Really? That also makes me happy.
In the company, some praise me much, I haven't accept them gratefully.
Yet I couldn't understand less than 30% of the natives conversation however I try to listen to.
I can feel something different from a translation, but many case I can't find which more natural way to say.
Later I'd like to write detail about him, grown up only in US (CA) and come to work to Japan for the first time around his 30's.
He's a genuine Japanese, (at home his mother didn't speak English at all) however, surprisingly he spoke very complicated story (philosophical inquiries, historical events, etc.) in Japanese.
I asked him a few times, during that about a hour conversation; "Are you really educated only in US? People who educated only in Japan wouldn't talk like this!!"
I had to concentrate, for a change used my brain much, so we left a man (speaks Japanese a little, likely not understand the content almost all) alone, still I'm sorry for that time.
Later, I think I'll write more. I was surprised most this year.
(- -)一応置いておく。
月夜さんは東京にいらっしゃってるし
（紅葉の中でカレーうどん、いいなあ。かっぱ達と楽しく！の妄想捗り）
まみこさんはブログをさらえてるし
みんなどんどん行っちゃうのに自分だけ
遅い！この感じ。ｗ
*土日は本当に寝てるか食ってるかでなーんにもできず。
すんげえキラッキラに晴れて美しい休日だった感じだけど、
もったいないとも思わず。
食事がしたいんじゃない、過食がしたいんだっ。コドモ全開。
*月曜日。仕事行ったはずが10分で帰って来た。ｗ
もう通勤電車からして頭が痛いわおなかもおかしいわ。
ま あんだけ週末身体を酷使しておいてパリッと元気で頭もクリアって方が怖いわな。ｗ
久しぶりに太陽の光と風だけで涙が出るほどつらい。
家に帰って布団にもぐりこんで、なぜか大汗かいて12時間くらい寝たらちょっとすっきり。
ちょっとだけ。コンタクトのストックがないことに気がつき
（よく気がついたと思う）うーだりーっ。と思いながらもズルズルとコンタクト屋さんと眼科へ。
クリスマスデコでキラキラなんだけど、もう、光、きれいなもの、それだけでブルブルするくらい「痛い」。
やばいやばい。久しぶりにやばい。
でも、何とか。コンタクトゲット。
*火曜日。定時にあがって定期を買いに行く。
昨日涙目でうつむいて通り過ぎた電飾を、今日は、携帯カメラでパシャパシャ☆
あー、今日は余裕があるのかな？ちょっと嬉しかった。
*アイデアの秘訣は、執念である。湯川秀樹氏の名言だそうだよ。
ちょっと元気になった気がする。
私は、執着というか、念が強すぎるらしいんだ。
何でもかんでもに、心がべたっとよくくっついて、なかなか離れない。
記憶力の良さとは関係があると思う。
スムースにいかないこと、苦しいこと、「偏り」が激しいことが多い。
人とは違った、それもきついゆがみを持ったレンズで世界を見ている。
自覚してるから、普通の人のレンズも相当「練習」して理解する努力をしてきた。
原因も分析して、自分のものにしてきた。
そっか、執着が強いとアイデアが出るんだ。
までも、「不必要」なものにべたっとくっついて離れないのは迷惑だし苦しいからな。
ぱっと離れられる努力と工夫は必要だよね。
****In my PC, some memos that I wrote more than a week ago remains.
Just for a record, leaving it below.
*5th and 6th Dec., I had done nothing. Only (over)eating and sleeping.
They were so beautiful days, and weekend, as I remember correctly, but I couldn't regret at all.
I wanna only binge, don't wanna take a meal.
*Monday. I was in office only 10 min.
When I was on the train, I had a headache and bellyache.
But is it scary if I'm in excellent condition while that I was in the weekend.
For a change, only sunlight was hurt all over, I was a little surprised to feel like that.
Getting back home and went to bed right away.
The evening, got up to find somehow sweated a lot and felt better just a little.
Found the stock of contact lenses to run out in a few day,
started to around the station the contact-lens-shop and ophthalmology - grovelingly.
(It's already completely dark. The day has increasingly got short.)
Christmas season is coming, the town here and there decorated and dazzling happily, cheerfully, merrily, but I couldn't take so at all. For a change, that're only felt hurt, irritated, couldn't stand to walk around.
I managed to get new ones.
*Tuesday. Left office on time and bought a commuter pass for the bus.
I could see around and take some pictures of dazzling spectacles I managed to pass by with my head down.
Am I a way better than yesterday? I felt a little happy.
*Tip to get inspiration is to be persistent.
Dr.Hideki Yukawa's quote, cheers me up I found the other day somewhere.
Some say I'm abnormally persistent and likely to too concentrated, and leaving my concious on people, things.
That might come to my good memory and concentration, but sometimes suffer people, itself get troubles more than enough. I should keep setting it right for good.
I'm seeing world through distorted glasses from others', glasses would have distortion more or less, but the way of mine is extraordinary so I have been learned the others' and tried to understand much.
I have to keep learning the way leave from one that I once been stuck.
I got, persistence makes people creative and inspirational.
That really cheers me up.
**Really? That also makes me happy.
In the company, some praise me much, I haven't accept them gratefully.
Yet I couldn't understand less than 30% of the natives conversation however I try to listen to.
I can feel something different from a translation, but many case I can't find which more natural way to say.
Later I'd like to write detail about him, grown up only in US (CA) and come to work to Japan for the first time around his 30's.
He's a genuine Japanese, (at home his mother didn't speak English at all) however, surprisingly he spoke very complicated story (philosophical inquiries, historical events, etc.) in Japanese.
I asked him a few times, during that about a hour conversation; "Are you really educated only in US? People who educated only in Japan wouldn't talk like this!!"
I had to concentrate, for a change used my brain much, so we left a man (speaks Japanese a little, likely not understand the content almost all) alone, still I'm sorry for that time.
Later, I think I'll write more. I was surprised most this year.
